So, the other day I had a huge epiphany. I had a huge moment of "oh my gosh...I get it!" We are doing Beth Moore's
Loving WellBible Study at church on Tuesday mornings, and while I have missed a few weeks of it, I was able to make it this past Tuesday. I really enojoyed the DVD and I learned so much from that one session. From what I can tell, the study is all about how we have been called to love others because God has first loved us. Not only that, but we are loved...so loved. God really does love each and everyone of us and it's just so hard to fathom that. It's been hard for me to realize that and to know that His love is true, real and more than we could imagine as human beings.
Back to my story. So, JM has been especially fussy and just not quite himself here lately. I put him in his swing to hang out for a little bit so that I could get a few things put away so my house wouldn't wouldn't look like a tornado came through. He, of course, started fussing at me and was really not too excited about being put in his swing. He
really let me know about it when I left the room to put some things away. I came back quickly, all the while telling him this:
"JM, I am here, I am not leaving you."
"Don't you know your Mama loves you so much and would never leave you...I'm here"
"Your Mama's not going to let anything bad happen to you because she loves you soooo much!"
While it didn't calm him down too much, it was so profound to me. Had I not learned of my Heavenly Father's love for me this very same morning and really, my whole life in church? Do I believe it everyday of my life? One lady from study said that we've lost the wonder of God's love for every
single one of us...I think that's true. As I said the words aloud to JM to assure him of my presence and my love, I was in awe of the fact that by saying it aloud, I finally got it. It's what I've been studying and what I know to be true: God loves us. Just the night before this I read this verse that stuck out at me:
"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." Heb 13:5
I love these next few statements. They were taken from the Beth Moore small group study guide for
Loving Well:Do you know how much I love you? Do you know that I have never forsaken you nor will I ever reject you? I will always be there. I love you unashamedly. These are the things that we feel about our children - unconditional, enduring love - but we must never forget that we are
children of God. As His child, he feels these things for us, also.
All right, I am SO stepping off my soapbox right about now. I won't be back on it again until something either makes me mad or something profound happens to me! Tomorrow I'll be back to my regular posting of precious pictures of John Michael and our fluffer.